I can see the venom in their eyes...

I find that it's easy to have faith when everything is going well. It's easy to trust God when the decisions aren't major ones. Even if things don't work out exactly how I'd like them too, it's not that big of deal because it wasn't that big in the first place. But when the future is a big question mark, and the path(s) I could take aren't as well lit as I would like, faith makes it's presence known. The thing about faith is that it's one-part exciting and two-parts extremely nerve racking. That's where I'm at right now because I seriously have no clue where I'll be in a couple months. The easy answer would be to just find another RD job somewhere and continue living in the Christian bubble. But just recently I feel like I should look elsewhere, possibly venturing out into the "real" world, which again is exciting and nerve racking. I guess I feel like I need to see what it's like, even though most people tell me to stay where I am because I have it good. Maybe I'm not supposed to have it "good".

Anyways, the NCAA tournament has been pretty exciting. It's funny how this one tournament dominates so much of our lives. People skip work to watch every game, and so much money is spent on brackets, it's crazy. But there's something pure and invigorating when you watch these kids play with such passion, and not for big bucks like in the pros. I picked Kansas to win it all, so go Jayhawks!...

Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great...

I find that one of the most difficult things for me to deal with is closure, or lack thereof. I think closure is such a big deal because we live in a "what if" world. What if this had happened? What if I did this? We always wonder what would happen if we could go back and change something. Anyways, I think when we aren't satisfied or have complete understanding of why something took place it eats at us, at least it does me. I think I do a good job of moving on past unresolved things but many times a picture, place, or comment from somebody will trigger that unresolved situation. The worst is when it involves another person who thinks the situation is resolved because then it will most likely never lead to closure. There's just some people out there who I want to go bang on their door and say "What the heck! I gotta resolve this, even if I'm wrong in the end. Just explain this to me. Make me understand!" But alas, life doesn't work that way...